My mind is always active.
I can never really shut off.
I take comfort in knowing you are sleeping....but god,
What I wouldn't give to be able to sleep right now.

I wait for the day we're living together.
Sometime's I switch off to 'other' people.
Thats probably when I'm happiest.
When it's me and you in our bubble.

I know, that's unrealistic.
But when I'm not with you in person I crave our bubble like when we are.
It's hard being away from you.

I think this is what it is to miss someone.
/revelation/

8 Months! 8D

8 Month's ago I was waiting at a friends place for My lady to arrive,  I walked upto her in the icy snow and threw my arms around her. It was cold.

3/4 of a year already! Where has the year even gone? Now we're moving in and not a moment to soon. I feel like we've faced so many battle's to just get here. When we reach a year I will feel such a sence of acomplishment.
We've had so much shit baby. But you've stuck by me <3
Can't wait to live with you.
I've been in relationships before, I was with someone for 2 years and we never moved in because it didn't feel right. But everything with you, does. I knew I wanted to live with you the moment we got together. There's never been a single strand of doubt.

I Love You baby, more and more everyday. You are my soulmate.

When something is grained into your veins so hard that it's contaminated your blood and become a disease you realize there is little chance of a cure. It's human nature to fight it of however I find it gut instinct to chase it and under mind it, seeking strength in finding answers and ultimatums that don't always exist and it's very irritating to follow the thought's of something when there is no end. But not as irritating as finding that end. The only person it irritates is me and everyone/thing is blissfully aware to the hurricane inside my head.

Sunlight

Once upon a time, A strawberry met a star!

They discovered that they had many things in commmon, and began to chat daily on the phone.

One day, the star asked the strawberry to come and visit him, in real life, however, the strawberry was very nervous and scared. For the strawberry was madly in love with the star!

The strawberry thought to himself, what if the star does not like me in real life - what then? It was hard to think about. But against all odds the strawberry decided to take a chance and go.

When the Strawberry finally met the star, the strawberry felt more attraction then before, however the star did not, and so his worst fears were realised. 

The strawberry cried so much, he felt so very sad  - but somehow he wasn't surprised. He was just a strawberry afterall . It had always been some kind of impossible dream.

After that, the Strawberry (in time) managed to sustain a positive and strong friendship with the star, and was able to return home with his head held high.

He began to realise that the kind of attraction he felt towards the star was more of an admirable one, and that when he really sat and thought about it, it would never have worked anyway.

The strawberry was glad - for, A strawberry could never look right beside a shinning star - strawberry's don't bloom at night, they need sunlight.

Sunlight.

The strawberry took many wayward roads, some wrong, some to pass time.

And even though he knew the sun shone for him, and for everyone. He never imagined that the sun had a special place beneath it's light rays, for him.

He become good friends with the sun, a sun which continued to glow for him untill eventually he found himself becoming confussed.

This was simular to the star, but much more intense and much more powerful. And it wasn't purly admiration this time, it was something else.

Thats when the strawberry finally realised, that sunlight was  - waiting for him, beside him, wanting him to grow within his light.

He found his ability to truly smile.

For a star, while it shone bright and stood high beside him, didn't give him what he needed. He'd have been a simple reflection. Where as the sun illuminated him, allowed him to grow, change, adapt, bask, breathe.

While the strawberry could never match up to the star, he was content standing and allowing it to glow, because, he had something much better all along. The sun.  And she promised to shine untill the very end.

I don't know If I'll actually follow this site through but I thought I'd give it ago, even if it's just somewhere to put the random shit I come up with. ;D I have an awesome brain and It seems a waste not to share it with the world, don't you think?

Don't answer that cause I know you agree! ahaha, this is pretty sweet though, I'm liking the layout and font. Nice. And I can change all of that, and the colour and shit, along with photo's which is kinda cool, I think I might grow to like this, it seem's like a pretty simpler version of LJ which I also enjoyed useing now and again.

First person to give me a topic (regardless of what you choose) will be the next thing I post about! Be creative. Ahaha.

- Amber